Monday, August 02, 2010

I'm soooo burnt out on work. . . . .

. . . .and my life.  I haven't had more than a day off since the last 2wks in December 2009.  Even then I probably shouldn't have taken those 2 weeks 'cause I worked my ass off all January (50-60/hr weeks).

Even when I do get home at a decent hour there's sooo much to do there that I don't have the mental capacity left after working all day to make a list and get it done.  I shit you not we have over 4wks worth of clean laundry just in piles in the spare bedroom - it's embarassing.

What sucks is my lack of motivation is what is 'causing me now to work longer hours.  I just can't focus on the task at hand.  Even as I mark things off my list of things "to do" - there's still another list forming in my head.  It's a vicious circle and I really wish it would form into a triangle or square or something so I knew there was a end in sight.

Could my lack of motivation be depression?  Don't know and probably won't until the end of August when I can finally take some time off and get myself to the doctor.

Back to work now - and yes work, and not surfing the internet (well at least for a couple of hours).

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